YES PLEASE.

This has been one of those weeks where I’d like to do a mind-wipe. Forget who I am and start over with a new identity. Maybe I’d be a gal named Adelheid milking cows in the Swiss countryside which I’d later make cheese from (the milk, not the cows — and, second time I’ve mentioned cheese this week; clearly an essential part of my diet). Maybe I’d be a garbage lady.

I am just feeling like I need a change of scenery. Boredom has started to creep into every part of my life, yet I am so fixed in my routines… I have this stupid notion that I’m stuck in this career path and sometimes I wonder if I chose wrong, though I feel too far in (which is dumb). Don’t get it twisted, I love being a graphic designer, but it does bum me out how much of my life is spent sitting and staring into a backlit screen. I wish I could be more active. Maybe I should just get one of those treadmill desk things.

Bear with me here, stream of consciousness in full effect. My mind has been overactive lately. I think I’m starting to feel old, which I KNOW is crazy (only 26). I have tendencies to think too far into the future and overanalyze what I’m doing with my life. Will I have time to accomplish all my dreams? I still would love to make furniture, learn metalsmithing and a different language or two…travel for extended periods. I want to see the world, create in all kinds of mediums, appreciate nature constantly…hopefully have a garden someday, make more of my own foods. I realize there is plenty of life left (hopefully)…but with only two weeks of paid vacation a year (which doubles as sick leave) I wonder how I will ever have time to see out all my goals. And then that leads into me being frustrated with this situation we’ve created for ourselves as human beings (er, Americans)…this whole workaholic mentality. I get sad thinking about it. Do you? Or am I just an idealistic freak?

Well, there was another scattered rambling, courtesy of many sleepless nights this week. Happy weekend! Any plans?

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