Happy birthday Aiden. FIVE.

Test Drive by John Powell on Grooveshark
(Aiden's very favorite song)

Every year when I do their birthday posts I get so emotional. Looking back through photos, laughing and crying through the memories. Where does the time go? I try with all my might to embrace and capture and cherish every moment, yet I still feel like they are rapidly slipping through my fingertips. Aiden's actual birthday is Saturday but I wanted to go ahead and post this for him.

Five. sigh. Five years ago I met you for the first time and my heart has never been the same. I knew I would love being a mom, but I had no idea how much. I had no idea my heart was capable of loving the way it does now. I didn't realize the intensity of it all. You have changed me, helped me and rocked my world in the best way possible. I think about the years from now when you won't need me the same way and my heart just aches. If I could just bottle up this season, the tone of your voice, the precious things you say and keep them forever and always. Today is everything. The now. The years I always dreamed of.

Aiden your spirit is amazing. Your creativity, your sensitivity. I can't wait to see where your life leads. I can't wait to see the man you will become.

There aren't the words.

As long as I can remember I have wanted to be a mom. And on March 22 that dream came true for the first time. I love you with all my heart & soul sweet boy. Thank you for being more than a dream come true.