Why do you dislike school?

Hello everybody. I'm taking time to write this post because I can't keep it to me any longer. I never disliked school every much. When I was in high school I was uncertain, not paying attention to my appearance. I studied hard, partly because I was afraid of the reaction of my parents, but also I was afraid to not be a good girl. I never dared to do something adventurous. I wasn't able to socialize properly. Of course, never I had any complains of the teachers. No, I was always the good girl. The girl who said still on the chair and followed the lessons without exchanging a word with my neighbour, just because I was AFRAID of what the teacher would think of me. Later, in my last two years of high school I had the most amazing classmates who were all unique and we all supported each other. We accepted each other and so did the teachers. I grew strong and find myself those years and I though everything could only become better.

I better thought otherwise. The moment I entered collage everything went down. I lost my certainty, I lost my confidence, I lost me. If it weren't for the friends I have, I would have already decided to go to a better place far away. Where I could walk on the clouds watching down on what would be happening downstairs, but not actually caring. Laying down in a large field covered in beautiful yellow flowers while the sky is bright blue. Instead of screaming; "I hate you, I hate school!" I told myself, "Grow stronger, grow more beautiful!". Apparently I never actually did grow stronger. I envy people who can walk through the world without actually caring what other persons think, say, do.. and just be themselves and say what they want to say and do what they want to do, but I'm not that person. No I'm the one who looks at the stars and wonders what will happen if I try the chase them. The person who jumps over lakes, deep in though in her own imagination. I'm blaming all of you, you out there who don't know what your doing, all of you who think to stand on top op my shoulders, looking down upon me, but I tell you something! My time has yet to come to stand on that hight mountain, the mountain that YOU never reached. And one day, one day I'll confront you with who you are, and I tell now, it isn't very nice to hear. So if you're treated badly in the future, I'd wouldn't be surprised, because you will be seen as who you truly are. And it was about time you realized! Yes, I don't like going to school because everything seemed to be taken from me there while I could be a confident girl who knew her talents, who wasn't afraid to show them, somebody who had the guts to shout out what she was thinking against somebody she would always wanted to shout at. I don't mind work, studying, because I'm always working and always thinking of work that I can't even sleep. I would be glad that I could be a teacher who could change that!

Why do you dislike (hate) school?