My top 3 worst traits... (but I'm still adorable ok)
Is it sad that I actually spent a good amount of time deciding which ones to post because I have a lot of bad traits? Well, this leads to my very first point...
1.) I always put myself down - 15 years ago, this would have been a different story. I used to sing in front of everyone, volunteer, lead the class, etc. I had a lot of confidence back then, but somehow, it turned into the complete opposite - I simply doubt myself about pretty much everything. I started feeling afraid to try out new things, because I just knew that I can't do it. I stayed inside my own cave, didn't dare step outside of my comfort zone, and just let others do it for me because I have no confidence.
2.) I tend to push people away - 3 of the most treasured people in my life are sadly no longer around me, because I tend to just push them away instead of dealing with my emotions. I act hastily and come up with decisions without thinking about it throughly, I just do and say whatever the hell I want without even realising that I am pushing people away. I'm now slowly learning how to avoid this, because I can't afford to lose more people! How I wish I could take back my actions and words, maybe someday...
3.) I am a good liar - So good that my mum actually went to my room 2 nights ago and said: "Hey, my daughter who's so good in lying, what should I tell my boss tomorrow for being absent?" Don't get me wrong, I'm not a compulsive liar, just a great one who can cover up lies as long as I want/can. Although, I use it for good (?) reasons... like returning my brother's iPod because he dropped it... and told the store manager all the shit I could think of just so they will repair it under the warranty.
Okay, I know it says top 3 but I really needed to add this one...
4.) I am Blair Waldorf's twin - Scheming is my second name. I've been doing it before I even had my first communion, and I still do it every time I have (?) to. Sometimes, I feel bad, sometimes I feel good... and when I feel good, I think that means I'm a sadist for that day.
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