March 18

Today is my 65th birthday. Hard to believe that I was 57 when Lane died on this very day in 2006. I guess I have been in denial because I just stopped having birthdays. I had no reason to celebrate. Regardless, every year March 18th came along and I got a year older and one more year without Lane.

I think back over the last 8 years how so much has changed, including me. I think Lane would be proud of how I managed the business and my life. He would have wanted me to have more fun and to do exactly whatever I wanted to do. I know he would want me to be happy - happier than I am. Of course, where I am in my life is on me not him.

So today on my 65th birthday I am going to try and enjoy myself. Maybe a manicure or a massage. Lunch with a close friend. And seeing my youngest grandson later will be fun for sure.

Lane, if you can hear me, hear this. I am doing okay. Although I will never forget that moment my whole world came crashing down, after 8 years I spend more time remembering the good times. And remembering how much we loved and took care of each other.

Thanks for letting me vent. Turning 65 isn't easy. Being without Lane never will be.

Sue