Quiet

During times of extreme change I become quiet. Private, maybe, is a better description. Either way, I have been going through one of those periods for a few months and I feel ready to talk about it now.

For the longest time I have known we needed to be somewhere else....Doing something else. I've felt pulled in an unknown direction for months and have been pretty confused as to why, to be quite honest.
On one hand, I felt greedy. I felt greedy because I am fully aware and appreciative of the awesome life we live. So why was I having these underlying feelings that it wasn't enough...that there is something more...something else out there for me and my family?
And on the other hand, I know these types of thoughts are not random. They are your gut. Your intuition...a divine power stepping in and urging you to make a move--and if I've learned anything over the last few years it's that you listen to your gut.
....even when your gut is telling you, 'NOW! Flip your life upside down, and do it right now.' --and you're like, "Ummmm, you sure about this, gut?? This is so risky. Plus, this is the worst timing ever... Remember you're having a baby in like just a minute? And the kids each start school next month?? What about our insurance? ...this is just a really crazy time for us, gut. Can all this life altering moving and job change stuff happen after, pleaseeee?"
Gut's response: No. Now. Do it all now.
So we are.
We flew home from a wonderful vacation with my family in McCall, Idaho last night, sans children, to pack up our whole house up in just 7 short days.
From there, we've decided to move to our favorite little town in San Diego as soon as all the dust settles and we find a house...and, of course, deliver this baby boy of mine.
It all sounds so fast doesn't it? It's because it is. But when I truly look back, I can seen a chain of events all leading up to this exact moment starting almost a year ago. Everything from chance encounters with random Instagram friends, to getting invited to go on a trip to Thailand with total strangers and saying yes without any hesitation at all....it's all meant to be. I feel it and see it so clearly now.
Life is pretty cool when you sit back and don't resist it, isn't it?