Chapter – One Hundred and Sixty Three

Why had I not stayed away from all these people from these things? Simple, like most girls I suffer from a severe case of liking things or FOMO! Fear of missing out! I was at the center of everything and yes I might not have planned but reality does not change!

I wish I had the academic focus of an ugly girl. How many pretty girls do you know who come to university very bright yet fall on the wayside because the bright lights were not managed well? Ugly girls and I know it’s impolite to say the truth, ugly girls often graduate in larger numbers and in normal time than the pretty or so called beautiful ones. Its true. Even in high school. The pretty are the ones no one really expects to pass matric because they are full of themselves and there is. At this moment I really wished I had not attracted these guys when I first met them. Would I have done things differently? Most definitely I would have. Regret is the folly of most men so let me move on.

Why was this cop threatening me? Come on now this chapter had to end. I was not interested in being part of this. S had died because she got too involved and now this was taking me down that path. What had happened to my man though? I tried calling him but he did not pick up. What if he was dead? In my head I could see Gorilla crushing Python with his sheer bulk. I called again and he did. Not pick up. I tried Abisola and she too ignored my call. Panic and fear swept through me. Where were they? Surely they could not already be burying him. Ok silly thought. I had no choice, I called Gorilla. He picked up calmly as though nothing had happened. I had expected him to be fuming and throwing curse words around. In fact if anything he sounded apologetic. This man was an actor! He said Python had come to his office accusing him of things and the only source could have been me. I reminded him that he had been at my flat with the police so the accusation was justified and he said he knew what he was doing. He said we could not talk over the phone but if I made time for him for him he would tell me the truth about exactly what was going. I told him I did not want to hear this for I was tired. I reminded him that I was a student, a first year student at that so no thank you. I had enough going on. I hung up. He called me back I did not pick up.

I called my aunt to come pick me up. I could not be in this toxic place any minute longer. This building was cursed. She said she had just left Rosebank Office Park but was already driving home so she would be here shortly. She would meet me downstairs. I packed a small bag and did not even bother to wait for her to call. She found me there! That’s how badly I wanted to leave. She could see something was wrong but said we will talk about it when we got home. I don’t know if I was ready for that big talk though. She got a call from Benny asking her to pick him up from a friends place because the friend’s parents had not arrived yet to pick him up. He said he had tried to call his father but his phone was off. My aunt said she would swing by. Problem with Johannesburg is that everything is far apart and even the close parts are far because if you hit traffic you are screwed! We hit traffic! Just our luck. What should have been a 15 minute drive turned into an hour.

I took a chance and decided to try Python again. When he picked up I asked him what he had done and why he had not picked up? He said he was tired of being accused of things he had not done so he had gone to confront Gorilla about how dare he bring me into this! He said he did not mind everything else but this had brought him over the edge. He told me that taking the woman he loved and putting her into harms way like this had to be the worst kind of betrayal. He said that he did not care whom or how big Gorilla was but he would kill him if he came near me again. Is that love or obsession! I had never heard Python talk like this before to be honest and it scared me a little but I won’t lie I was a bit flattered to. A South African guy would probably leave you to fend for yourself if he saw that the odds were against you in a fight. Python had gone to take on a beast twice his size in my honor. Did this mean he really loved me? The confusion was back. I had just called off the engagement and still he went on to risk injury and broken bones for me! I do not think I was doing the right thing dumping him.

When we got to the friends place turns out we were at his girlfriends house. They came out together. I didn’t have to be a genius to be told who she was. Benny once told me that white girls are not as easy to lay as black girls and we had stopped talking because of that. Here she was. I was seeing her for the very first time. She was not even that pretty and she looked rather athletic to be honest! She might have been white but there was nothing to write home about. I wish I had her hair though. She came to the car and greeted. When Benny saw I was in the car he asked me to come out and greet her. She was actually so sweet unless she was pretending. You never with white people! It was so odd. He pecked her on the lips and got in the car. I know I have many problems of my own but I couldn’t help but wonder. One, I had never seen a black and a white kiss in person! It’s as simple as that. Where would I have seen that? In Mooi River? Clearly not. Secondly, to kiss a girl in front of your mother, yho! This modernity was getting a bit exaggerated now. That is disrespectful in any black culture. You are only allowed to kiss in front of your elders once in your lifetime and that’s at your wedding. That one we let it slide but not like this. Benny asked me what I thought of her and I told him she was ok. He looked away and started talking to his mother! Spoilt brat! I was actually annoyed, maybe a bit jealous! Ag! O frailty thy name is a woman! I didn’t even like him like that yet I was jealous!

Benny said he knew a shortcut after his mother told him of the traffic. It was short indeed for we were back at their place within 30minutes. However, when we got to my aunt’s place there was chaos! We found Malume Rodney livid. He was throwing my aunts things out of the house accusing her of cheating. He said he had found out that she had been at the hospital after he had specifically told her to stay away from Martin. I was stunned. Was he not the one with a pregnant little girl stashed in Bloemfontein!

That’s when I looked at her! My aunt looked at me with this sadness and pain in her eyes. I am certain she thought it was me who had told him for she asked me completely,

“Why Thandeka?”

I immediately told her it was not me and took out my phone to show her my call records but she walked away. In her head I had betrayed her!

That did not take long though! He turned on me too and started accusing me of being my aunt’s partner in crime! He said that he had been told that she came with a girl and he knew immediately that it was me.

My aunt at this stage was picking up her clothes from the lawn. This was embarrassing

Benny went and held his father as it looked as though she was about to attack his mother.

When I crouched next to her she said to me,

“Stay away from me! You are the only one who knew! After all I have done for you?”

I was stuck!

****The End****

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Michael Nkululeko Maphoto

Hi Mike

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I have a problem. I have been dating a sugardaddy for the last three years parallel to my boyfriend of five years. I recently found out I was pregnant but the problem is it happened when I was with sugar daddy. He lost his son recently in an accident by the way. Now he believes that the child is his as he thought I broke up with my boyfriend long ago. He wants me to keep ‘our’ baby. I think he thinks it will replace his lost son I don’t know. I have not told my boyfriend yet that am pregnant because I am not sure who is the father. He proposed a month ago and I said yes and am wearing his ring as I write you this.

Please advise me on what to do.

Thank You

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