JUST KILL ME. OR GET ME OUT OF THE SUN.

The fact that I hate September and the sun is making my days very difficult to tolerate. And the nights I just want to spend so I dont have to see a face I recognize and voice I know.
I've also been getting sick alot with this bad mood and it kills me a lil everytime.
Living like this.. Its unbelievable. If I could go back in time, I'd let go of somethings and hold on to somethings. I'd not let go. Or let the superficial win. And I'd hold on. But valuing and leaving, I get it. But how is one supposed to watch out for something so impossible lidat?! WHAT A FUCKING JOKE.
Worse days to come coz Puja month is almost here.. That time of the year when you'd wanna say goodbye to your ears if you could. And soon after that the year's over!(O_O；)
Living like this.. Its unbelievable.
So despicable I'd rather die.