Conversation on my hiatus...(es)

I'm sure as you've all noticed, I've been on another one of my hiatuses. In the past I haven't explained them as they were all for different reasons, but now I realize that I owe my readers an explanation.

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Firstly let me start by apologizing. I've gotten e-mails of concern and of disappointment that I took my blog down. It is never my intention to worry anyone, but sometimes in life you have to do what you have to do. I needed a mental break. Truth is: I haven't been feeling very good about myself lately. And I'm sure you all know when you don't feel good about yourself, you don't feel good about anything. Sometimes things unravel all at the very same time! nothing seems right, or as right as you'd want them to be. You know when the battles between the soul and the nafs (ego), between right and wrong, good and bad, all seem to creep up on you with no warning, and throws off your entire zen? It's sort of like that. But instead of running from them I faced them -and am facing them- head on, and it is both exhausting and liberating all at once. In short: I've been in a funk, and I'm trying to dig myself out of it. I hope that makes sense?

All that aside, I want to express that although I may be going through a personal rough patch, I am and will always be grateful for the things that are wrong and right. Even hardships are are a blessings -slash- lessons in disguise, and keeping that in mind is helping me bounce back. I'm craving something richer... I want to dig deeper into life and make it about something, dive more into my faith and really grasp it with love and understanding, I want to treat my body more kindly and see what it can really do, and put my creativity to tests that I could only imagine. I am a pretty impulsive person, diving head first into everything with little thought, but as my dear husband keeps reminding me "baby steps." Noahs arc wasn't built in a day, it was built over hundreds of years of hard work, dedication, faith, and baby steps. So... Baby steps it is! All I have to do is show up and take the steps to change my condition, and Allah (God) will do the rest of the work!

"Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves." Qur'an (13:11)

So my lovely readers old and new, my hiatus is not permanent. I'm taking my sweet ol' time getting to know myself better, and my needs, so that I can put my best effort into everything that I do! I'm starting over, blog included! and I would love if you all continued to ride out this journey with me.

If you find yourself between a rock and a hard place, please (sorry, girls only!) [email protected]
know that no situation or condition is permanent. It will change! everything good won't stay good forever, and everything bad won't stay bad forever. That's life, and if you're not growing or evolving, you're dead (In the heart, or literally). My Email is always open if you need someone to listen

If there is anything you would like to see from me in regards to this blog, please don't hesitate to let me know! I am always looking for new ideas and inspiration.

I Love you guys!
Seriously!

xoxo
Imani