end cycle / current situation

Sorry for the silence. For the past year or so, life has been extremely difficult. If you are following me on instagram or if we are friends on facebook, you are probably aware of what happened recently. It has been almost a month now. At least now I can get up in the morning and make it through the day without crying or feeling completely helpless, even though everything still hurts.
Most of 2013 and every single day of 2014 so far has been a struggle. The psychological stress accompanied by the monotonousness of everyday life and work made me exhausted. Now I'm trying to take tiny steps, doing those little things I had no energy left to do before. Like today. I sat down at my kitchen table after breakfast with my laptop, opened chrome and (a little nervously) typed in the address to my blog. No entry since november last year. I can't believe how fast time passes by without you even noticing.
As you can see, I have made some changes to the design. Bigger images and a slightly more clean look. There are still some details I want to fix, but at least this is a step on the way. It feels so good to be able to have enough space in your mind to post something new here. Oh, if you have sent me an email - I promise I will reply all of you soon enough.

So, for my very first entry in 2014 - here is a little hello from my living room. I don't think I have shown any more images of the apartment since we moved in a few years back. Leia and Sputnik turned two years old a week ago, I can't believe that either.
Last night we built a fort with pillows and sheets in front of the couch, had popcorn and wine, watched a movie and played videogames until we fell asleep.