Rumblings – Chapter Thirty Six

I am one of those people that believe that never go back to an ex. I don’t know where I get that from but I guess once beaten twice shy. It’s funny how many girls will tell you the same thing yet for some reason they are still sleeping with an ex or have done that. If you do it they will call you dumb and a sucker for punishment but if they do it it’s like they are allowed to make mistakes. Mistake being the operative word though as it not considered a good thing. Tidimalo as a boyfriend sucked. He cheated once or twice, drank a lot and partied too much. When we broke up he did not even fight for me but in all honesty would have said no because I was with Mudenda already. How then had he changed so much in that time to become this perfect gentleman. His transformation was therefore nothing short of miraculous. When we dated he was young and so was I so I was not even sure at this stage if I should hold the grudge. He was so good with Amo and I cannot say he had disappointed me yet. Maybe he found mothers sexy because honestly at this stage in my life I felt fat and ugly. After you give birth it takes you a while to feel attractive let alone be ready to date especially after the way I was dumped. Eish there is that word. Most girls pride themselves about never having been dumped in their lives. They do the dumping but with life things change. Tidimalo was probably just trying to protect me from this guy so I probably should not see much into it. I stood up to think. With me for some reason I feel like when I am lying down I can’t think properly. It scrambles my brain like that signal jammer in parliament. Did I really want him as my boyfriend though? So far he had not even made a romantic move towards me. He had actually become more like my gay best friend! What if he had friendzoned me? That made sense! Explained a lot!

I needed to drink water at that thought. It’s not a nice thing to be friendzoned! That’s a matter of being so close and yet so far. I entered the living room but I don’t think my sister heard me as I did. She was on the phone and I can only assume it was with that guy. Crap I can’t even remember his name. It was not my fault though because my sister never kept these guys for long. She changed boyfriends like they were nappies so why bother remembering it. I was not paying attention to her conversation until she said to him,

“I want to get pregnant. I love babies so much and I don’t want to wait longer than necessary!”

She said. I don’t know what he said on the other side but I believe it was job related. She responded,

“Don’t worry about it, my mother will take care of the baby financially like she does with my sisters baby. It will all work out!”

I was stunned. I knew my sister competed with me and she was a bit stupid but this took the cake.Having babies is not a competition ladies!

I decided not to disturb and just walked past to pick up Amo. He was always hungry at night for some reason. Someone told me that intelligent healthy kids are those that breastfeed the longest but eish, this breastfeeding business I was not a fan of. I got an sms from Aurelia saying that she had given whoever my CV and tomorrow I should expect an answer! In her world things worked that fast. I know so many girls who have been looking for jobs, some for years even but there is no greater CV in this corrupt world than sex. Aurelia had just proven that. I know I should feel guilty about but getting a job is more important to me right now when I have a baby than moral values that will never pay my bills. Eish, the thought of what I had just thought made my stomach turn. Oh well, it’s not me that had slept with him. I went to bed with a clear conscience.

In the morning around 10am I got a call saying I should come in for an interview and since Aurelia had told him I was in North Riding and their company was in Randburg I should come in today. Just like that. I told my mother was not going to work and she was excited. She asked me when I had applied and I said had done this yesterday!

“I don’t want sugardaddies in my house!”

She said casually. She did not even snap. See, everyone knows how it works but obviously we never actually say it. Think about all those girls you know whom are less academically qualified than you yet by some miracle they earn twice as you! It’s not because God loves them more than you so stop going to church and hoping for a miracle. I assured her that I had not even met the owner of the company but rather a friend had taken my CV. I lied and said they were looking for a PA so for now I would take it if I got it. She did not agree though.

“You have such a strong degree why on earth would you want to be a secretary!”

She asked me. I could feel her temper rising,

“I paid so much for University of Pretoria and you think I will smile at you being a secretary? Really Faith! Mxm!”

She left and went to her bedroom. Eish, I had to go. I was not about to nurse egos. I went to my sister and told her what had happened. At least she was not making babies yet. She agreed to take me there but had to ask my mother to take care of Amo. I left that to her as I went to bath. It was so awkward though.

When I came out of the bath I had an sms on my phone. It was from Mudenda.

“May I please see you today. It’s very important.”

It read.

I think he had gotten the maintenance papers. That’s the only thing that made sense. I sat down to lotion myself. Today I could not take time though I was a bit late for this interview. When I was putting on my bra another sms came in, Mudenda again…

“Seeing you again the last couple of days made me realize what a fool I was. I still love you and I know I fucked up royally!”

That took me by surprise as I sat down on the bed, bra still in hand.

***** The End*****

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Dear Mike and the DOAZG family

Hope this letter finds you well. I am 26 years old woman dating 2 guys let’s call them THOBS and THUTHS. I love Thobs so much but he lacks skills in the bedroom which pushed me to finding him a helper who does what he can’t do and that’s Thuths.He (thuths) is so amazing, skilled he knows how to eat my cake, I cum on every round we have. Whenever I am with Thobs I imagine myself with Thuths hoping that maybe I could cum with him eating the cake n Thuths on my mind. We only do one round and he sleeps through out the night sometimes I don’t even get the MORNING GLORY. I now come up with excuses when he asks me to visit him. How can I talk to Thobs to improve his game without hurting his feelings and coming across as a miss know it all?
Thank u in advance.
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