Rumblings – Chapter Thity Four

Growing up there is this game, no calling it a game is overstating it, more like a challenge. What we would do was that two people would each build a mound of sand on the ground and then we will say one is his or her mother’s breast and the other mound is the same for that player. To challenge the opposite person had to demolish your mound! Lol I am laughing because this it where it got interesting…should she or he dare make that mistake then that day you will beat him or her until she tells you why a hyena can laugh but cannot smile. This shit was not for the faint hearted but isn’t what growing up ko kasi is! Good times I tell you so I have no regrets. No wonder why my mother moved us to North Riding. With that said, a baby mama and a new girlfriend play that game with each other to see who blinks first. You can’t back down and if it had to come to a fist fight we can take it there too! Yes I said it, I was willing to blacksem her ass if she came between me and my goals. Who did Meladi think she was really? Sies! As woman we can fight but to wish death on another’s child is to cross the line. This is because as women we know what it is to carry a baby to term plus the pain of giving birth so to then say that is beyond. I know they are baby mama’s that cross the line but it’s a fallacy when the new girlfriends friends tell her that go fight her and put her down. This is usually what stops the baby daddy from send maintenance or coming to see his child. We all have seen this. As soon as he dates someone he actually loves his shifts focus to the point of abandoning his child. Women have this thing of turning aa father from his child then go around saying what a loser his ex is. That is what creates all this animosity.

I don’t why what she had said had affected me. I had always known at some point Meladi will fight back not like this. Aurelia could see that what she had said had really pissed me off. I think my face had changed tones because now she was telling me not to worry Meladi was just being hormonal. I know I was being tough and defiant under the circumstances but I am also human. It’s not a sign of weakness when a woman cries and at this moment I could not stop myself, I broke down into tears. It’s something a lot of people do not understand. I can safely assume that as a single mom, once every month you give yourself a good cry because there is so much pressure let alone if you are unemployed. I know they say it’s a man’s world and it’s true. Your baby daddy gets a clean slate when he moves on and most girls in fact expect it of a man to have a child outside hence why they are readily forgiven. It’s weird really. Aurelia did not know what to do though? I am sure she was thinking I had no reason why to cry but it’s hard, it really is!

Eventually I calmed down. She took me to buy the things that my mother had said I should buy. Fortunately my sister was back at this stage so I did not have to drag Amo with me. I needed a car badly though. I had a learners already and I could drive but I did not have the r3000 to pay for a bribe to get a license. This country though, it’s rotten to the core! The outting more than anything gave me some fresh air with a friend. I managed to laugh again without a motive and just be happy. When she dropped me off she could not stay. She had to beat traffic so she left immediately. With load shedding the roads had become worse so it was a necessity. I had not even finished unpacking when my phone rang. It was Mudenda.

“Hi!”

I asked him half expecting him to start off with shouting.

“How are you?”

He said on the other side like a civil person. He was not fighting with me as I expected.

“I am sorry about how I behaved. I should never have hit you or lay a finger on you. I crossed a line I never want to cross again.”

He said still very calm. I was expecting him to say he was just joking but he did not.

“Okay!”

I responded. What else could I say?

“Please don’t fight with Meladi. She has become quite hormonal and instead of helping to make the situation better she makes things worse.”

He continued. He was right about her making things worse but she had really pushed boundaries by wishing death to Amo. I wanted to scream at Mudenda for this but what would it achieve. I kept quiet. He said bye the same way he started, cordially! The first thing I thought was that this was some kind of reverse psychology. He wanted to see what I would do next I suppose. This had to do with the dissertation even though he had not brought it up. In relationships as girls we often let our men get away with things. It’s not because we are stupid or dumb but that we pick our battles well. Mudenda always thought I could not think for myself because often I would agree to what he said even though half the time he would mess up afterwards. Most guys don’t have sorry in their vocabulary when it comes to their girlfriends. They try to justify themselves. That was Mudenda for you. I did not ask him how badly they beat him up because it was none of my business.

I was not going to entertain the thoughts of him further though as I started cooking. My mother hates when she gets home and there is no food on the table. When I cook I zone out, I think I enjoy it that much. It’s my own place of comfort. It was two hours later when I was almost done that my mother arrived. She came straight to the kitchen where I was and said,

“I got a call today from Mudenda’s family. They have asked to come see the baby officially this coming weekend.”

She was very cheerful and even wantedd to hug and congratulate me. I was not cheerful. I was apprehensive.

Was this not what I always wanted?

****The End*****

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Hi mike
I love your stories I read every day.
I’m a 30yr old woman I met my ex boyfriend at work and we were in a relationship for 1 year. While we were in the relationship he used to beat me for things like if I dont want to ha sex with him…or if I wanted to go home he will say I’m not going home as he was very jealous. This is whilst he was cheating with different woman each and every week I use to find him with someone else I use to forgive him. At one point I got fed up I broke up with him I found another cute guy his jealous started he would done nd threaten me I thought he was joking with all those threat. One day in the even after dark I met him on my way to my place he started assaulting me , he took out a knife he stabbed me 8times …
After all that people were blaming me saying I was the one who was wrong. I dont understand our society that we leave in he didnt have a right to do what he did …no man has a right to abuse any woman but what can I say woman are always wrong and the man is right!
Thank You

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