Important Random Things

- I cutted my bangs. Again. I swore I would never ever ever no never ever schmever cut my bangs again but I did. I can't help, Yolanda from Real Housewives of Beverly Hills just looks so cute with her bangs! And I want to look just like her. Nevermind the fact that she's a former supermodel natural blonde from Sweden and I'm....not. Still. Didn't stop me from booking a hair appointment this morning at 9 sharp to get her exact look. Wish me luck. This pasty white black-haired dish from the Northwest is gonna need it.
- So I talked last week about completely getting off my crazy meds. Cold turkey. (The current anxiety meds I was on allowed me to just stop straight out. Under a doctor's care, of course.) It's been almost a month now and I can say with clarity that it still sucks. My anxiety still rears it's ugly head, usually at night when I'm trying to sleep, and there is nothing I can do but lay in bed, stare at the ceiling, take deep breaths and continue to tell myself that I am not really dying of heart failure.
That said, I'm definitely going to keep it up. Sure the anxiety is still there, but the side effects from my medication is not. Another setback is now that I'm completely off the kooky stuff, I find myself very emotional. And look, I am not an emotional person. I don't hug, I don't talk all intimate-y stuff and I never cry. Yet now? Just the other day I started crying in the middle of a car insurance commercial.
But don't worry. I just delve right into the Fireball and drink those tears away. Feelings damn you the hell.
- I'm obsessed with The Mortal Instruments series. I never thought I would be so invested in a series about angels and devils and warlocks and vampires and werewolves. But I am. I've talked about it quite a bit on my instagram (do you follow? username ---> @ravenasmith) and I've been reading it slower than I'd like because sorry not sorry I have tots, ok? You kidless reader bees who can read to your hearts desire make me sick. Screw off with your cozy jammies by the faux fireplace and stacks of unread books. Bye.
- Speaking of books, do you Goodreads? Follow me! It's one of my favorite apps on the iPhone. My username is Raven Smith. Let's read, bitches.
- Speaking of books, there are so many I want to read. And we all know books are expensive. Everyone tells me to check them out from the library 'cause it's free. I just can't do it. I can't. I have this weird thing about buying my books brand new from the bookstore. Books from the library smell. And I like to smell my brand new books. I cherish my books. I'm scared to lend them out to friends because I don't want any edges bent. I like to smell my books and sometimes I like to kiss my books.
I love my books. They are like an extended limb. I take them everywhere. I even read them on the pot, ok?
- K gotta go. I promised my four year old I'd make him a cheeseburger before school in the morning and since I'm mother of the year.
Peace peeps.