I used to be better at this! Remember back in 2011 and 2012 when you actually saw regular blog posts from me? What happened? Near the end of 2012 and pretty much the entire 2013 I went off track.
I was a ghost.
Sure, work was really busy and we had the garden to keep us occupied when I wasn't working. But if I'm being honest, I just wasn't motivated to blog. It's not like I didn't have anything to share. I even thought about posting several times and then I'd stop myself.
I would think "meh". I just wasn't in the mood.
But now I think I realize what it was. I wasn't being myself. I mean, I wasn't a complete fraud, but I wasn't the 'me' you'd meet in person. I was guarded and careful with my words. (I know it's hard to believe, since the writing isn't spectacular!)
I think when I began blogging, after following many other blogs for so long, I found a pattern. Everyone with the talent to share also seemed like the type of person you'd want to know. They were happy and cheerful and had a certain tone. So I faked it. I was upbeat and attempted to be personable, even if it didn't fit my current mood.
That's not so bad, though. I mean, if I was in a bad mood, I probably wouldn't want to write anyway!
But the 'me' you would know is not usually chipper and cheerful. I'm a pessimistic cynic. It might be an odd combination for someone who loves things that come in miniature or are cutesy. The real me will throw out F-bombs while decorating with washi tape and embroidering cuddly bunnies onto some fabric.