a bit of honesty.

I've struggled.
That's an understatement.
I've felt lost. Sad. Depressed. Angry.
The last few months have been hard. I've battled demons I never saw coming. I am not out of the woods, but I see and feel the light. The fog is lifting. God is my strength. He is molding and refining me, stripping away MY expectations and MY desires and transforming them into what HIS expectations and desires are for me.

It hurts.

I'm so thankful that my God is a God who sees me. Right where I am. He never abandons us.
His mercy is without end. Praise Him.

I don't want to waste any more time being angry.
I don't want to be a shell of a mom.
I want to be whole. I want to be invested.
I don't want to simply survive,
I want to thrive.