Swept Away

When I was a little girl I used to think that the clouds were heaven. And when people died, their spirits rose up into the clouds where they would find a cozy spot to sit and watch down over us.

If I missed a past relative or loved one, I would look up into the sky and study to clouds to find where they were. Often times, I would pick a medium sized cumulus cloud that looked nice and fluffy like a big ball of features. I was absolutely certain that my relative was sitting in that cloud. Then, as I would sit for an hour or so, I would have a conversation with that person in my mind. I would share all of my worries, my prayers, my stories. Sometimes I would sing to them. Little did I realize it at the time, but it was somewhat of a meditative state for me. I never felt rushed, time did not exist and I had a moment to myself to reflect and set my intentions. It was such a lovely place to be. A creative and free place of being.

I was thinking about this on my flight home from Dallas, Texas on Saturday as I made my way back to Los Angeles after attending the RewardStyle Conference {RewardStyle is an affiliate program that online publishers use to make a commission from their websites base off sales & performance}. I very often find myself rushing from task to task, city to city and so focused on the “what’s next” in life that I very rarely have the time to sit and reflect. I started this website from a very true, open and safe place that stemmed from my heart and desire to create.

It has been quite some time that I have taken the true time to sit down and set my intentions on what I want the next year or two to look like for this website. I feel like I’ve been hustling so hard for the past 3 years on creating something that people will love to visit every day, that I haven’t taken the time to create something that I would love to visit every day. Not only do fashion trends come and go so quickly, but this industry over the past 3 years has grown so rapidly that I’ve found myself swimming against the current in trying to keep up with the rapidly changing business that is called “Blogging.”

After a few hours of staring out the window at the scattered clouds between Texas and Los Angeles I had a true moment of clarity. Moving forward, I have promised myself to do whatever it is that truly comes from the heart and not get swept away in the clouds. And any time I feel lost or don’t know what to do, I’ll just tell myself one thing: Look up.

ATM Pant {sold out, similar pair here & here} // Creatures of Comfort Fringe Tank {$288} // Manolo Blahnik Tayler d’Orsay Pump {$735}

Photos by Jared Thomas Kocka