MOTHERHOOD, NOT WHAT I EXPECTED…
Motherhood has not only been the hardest thing I have ever done, but also the most rewarding. Poor King, as you know has been really upset & battling acid reflux. Monday he cried I guess a better word for it is screamed from 11 AM until 6:30 PM when he fell asleep in the carseat on the drive home. It really breaks my heart for him. We did get him some medicine thank goodness and he also went to a chiropractor that I trust yesterday. I am telling you, that it breaks my heart to see this poor boy screaming and in pain. It is not fair to babies to have to go through this! I also can say that he was a totally new baby yesterday! He only would be fussy when he needed his bum changed, was overly tired, or started to get hungry. I mean it has been the most amazing day. I have been taking in every snuggle he will give me!
Motherhood is nothing that I ever expected it to be, it is so much better and harder. It is late nights and early mornings when your eyes can’t even stay open. It is bouncing up and down holding your sweet little one while your thighs are burning, your arm feels like it is going to fall off, and they cry it out while everything you try doesn’t console them. It is loves, snuggles, and kisses. It is having more love for one little tiny human than you ever thought possible. It is happiness, defeat, broken hearts, and so much love. It is tears not only from mom, but also from your little one. Tears of joy, happiness, sadness, heartbreak, and love.
While I have only been a mom for 6 weeks, I can tell it has already changed me so much. My patience has grown (I thought that would never happen). My hear is fuller than ever. I have more love and respect for Zach than ever before. I am more defeated and vulnerable than I ever thought I would be, while I also feel more confident than ever before. It is pushing through frustration and heartache, and seeing the smiles and having the snuggles at the end. Motherhood has made me such a stronger women and person. It has given me a voice, made me ask for help, and has humbled me more than before.
I am so grateful to be a mommy to sweet King. I am so grateful for every struggle that I go through so that way I can have the loves, snuggles, and kisses to make my heart so full. There is nothing like being a mom, and I am so grateful that my Heavenly Father trusted me with King so he can teach me and help me become the person I have always dreamed of being.
