Motherhood Lately...
I haven't done a motherhood post in a while. Not really sure why, I think sometimes I feel overprotective and vulnerable because this is a public blog and sometimes I think about creepy people reading it, but you're not creepy right? :) I think that reading thoughts of other mothers has been great therapy for me, so here are some unfiltered thoughts of my own...
This time of year I'm always caught off guard by the feelings of overwhelm. I really wish sometimes that I didn't care, that I was super laid-back and casual. The truth is Christmas cards are important to me, even if it kills me this year to get them all addressed and out the door... it's happening! I love getting them too. I pray over the sweet faces and images of the cards sent to us from our favorite people. It's a big deal. So is getting my front porch decor right. It's not. It's about 80% done like most other things.
I had a minor meltdown yesterday. I feel like the weekends are never restorative. I just want to read a book by the fire but here's whats what. That laundry isn't going to do itself, I don't have access to one of those amazing home delivery services from Whole Foods and there are piles of "stuff" everywhere. I like order, but I feel like my fun time got all sucked up by it. I want my kids to have the happiest memories, not memories of me cleaning. I also want them to know reality and that their parents work hard. BALANCE.
Speaking of memory making. Last night Matilda was a sad little pup. "Mama, listen to what so and so's elf did last week and so and so's elf left cookie crumbles out and they had to find him! Why doesn't our elf do anything fun like that?!" I wrote more about that fun exchange here and you guys had me cracking up! The truth is, we barely remember or have the energy to be that fun and creative at 10 pm after all the other junk is done. Should we be more fun?! Her elf wrote her a note that night apologizing for the shyness right next to a pile of baking soda which was supposed to be snow but Matilda told me, "it's soda." Bahaa. Pinterest told me to! Guys. Help!
So, that's it in a nutshell. If you need me I'll be huffing oils listening to this. XO
More posts from Lesley Williams Graham
