Goodbye 2014. Thank you for the slap in the face.

Do you guys notice how quickly time passes the older we get? I can't be the only one. Needless to say, no, I do not have a single stinkin' excuse for my long-ass hiatus from this blog. I will, however, admit that it's been a terrible time away. I really do wish I could have committed to the internet world as much as I would've liked to this past year. What makes it even worse *sips wine* is that I remember - in disgustingly great detail - sitting my ass down at this same desk around this exact time in 2013 'blah-blah-ing' away about how I was going to TOOOOOTALLY be a very good blogger for 2014. HA-HA-HA! Seriously. SRSLY. I'm hilarious. At least I have my humour going for me? Amirite? (no one?…*sips wine*).

Anyway, let's return to the 'getting older' part. Yes. People get old. I get old. You get old. We all get frickin' old and fat and inevitably gross and stinky. I'm not saying these things to be a pessimistic sour-puss about it all. Instead, I am actually starting to have those "oh my gawd" moments lately when I'm, like, "holy hell, you're an adult!" *sips wine*…*sips wine again*... Why am I even saying this? Because, I'm only now realizing that I am AGING. So what? So THIS!!!: I am no longer young and spry. I can't get away with wasting an entire year without knocking a resolution or two off my list. Time will not be so forgiving in the years to come, and all laziness and failures will show on impending wrinkled skin and greying hairs. What I'm trying to say is, I feel like a sack of wasted poops for not knocking a single resolution off my list from January 2014. Get my driver's license? LAUGH! Stick to a budget plan?? GUFFAH! Find a new job??? HAHAHA!!…*pours more wine*…*sips*. As you can see, I have completely failed to meet any of these absolutely attainable resolutions that I had set out for myself for 2014. And it's not that I'm incompetent. As my blogging frequently suggests, it's just that I'm mother-flippin' lazy.

Anyway, allow me to make a jovial turn so we can end this post on a high note, shall we? All these self realizations of failure are not for nothing. On the contrary, I have actually pushed myself into an extremely high-level of motivation to be a BETTER version of myself. I realize the problem: it's me keeping myself from doing me. I've noticed that there has been a heavy weight of unhappiness on me because I really have not been enjoying what I have been doing with my life. My 9-5 job is literally becoming poison that is sucking me dry. When you work a demanding job for peanuts, and you get home from a late day at the office, all you want to do is have a glass of wine, take a hot shower and go to bed. This was becoming a painful routine for me. And when something like this becomes a routine, it becomes your life. In the last chunk of 2014, I let this take me over. I need to snap out of it, and I am ready to! Earlier today I came across the following Oprah quote:

Exactly. I have to keep in mind that 'no, this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life, this is just what I have to do NOW to pay rent'. I have always known that I cannot work for anyone else. I hate it. But I have only been prolonging this awful work situation by not pulling myself out of it. Let's just say I had a brief moment of blindness and lost sight of my end goal - to blog full-time. This has been something I've wanted to do for YEARS and it really is a sad shame that I'm not there yet. I feel like this is just life (or God) slapping me in the face and being like "uhhhhh, you frickin' idiot, get your stinkin' act together and work your ass off for what you really want!!". So, thank you life (and/or God) *sips wine*.

Let's end this on a high note. I have some serious determination and ambition for 2015, and I'll update you all with my 2015 resolutions in a couple of days. For now, I'd like to just reflect on some of the GOOD things that DID happen in 2014 because, to be quite honest, it did have its moments of true magic.

2014: All The Good Things:

1. January: Really perfected my crocheting skills. I crocheted so many things!
2. February: My first experience as a vendor at the Toronto Annex Flea Market!
3. March: Got invited to, and attended Toronto's World MasterCard Fashion Week. Also, had the best steak dinner at Hy's for Ryan's birthday. So good.
4. April: Finally dyed my hair GREY! Thanks to the beautiful and amazing Jacky at April Maloney Salon!
5. May: Collaborated with Fashion Editor Aya MacMillan, Beauty Blogger Elaine Atkins, Fashion Magazine, and Biotherm Canada on a

super cool beauty project!

June: Went to PARIS! Got ENGAGED! <3

July: Ate chicken & waffles for the first time. It was notable and delicious. Lol.

August: I turned 27…bittersweet?

September: One of my besties got engaged!! <3

October: Attended FASHION Magazine's first-ever Fashion Week Awards party. Amazing!

November: Went to Korea with Ryan and the entire Family! My sister got Married!

December: Spent my first Christmas with Ryan's Family in Windsor.

I hope the rest of you had an amazing 2014, and that very few were in need of a rude awakening like myself ;). Bring it on 2015!!