Let’s Just Have a Therapy Sesh About It

Yesterday I was talking on the phone with Jamie per the norm and I was telling her that I am in a dark creative-less life sucking hole right now. (What a fun and uplifting way to start a post yeah?! Happy Wednesday!!)

See I have this theory.

Creativity is like a self charging battery. When you use it, it generates more power, more ideas, more creativity. When you don’t use it, it sort of just drains away and you are left with a hunk of uselessness. (Picture me as this hunk). Knowing myself and my process when I get like this I need something EXCITING to pull me out of the funk. To give me a jumpstart and get things rolling again.

Once the Nugget and Ashy’s Room were finished in Nov. I turned off Creative Mandi and turned on Netflix Watching-Holiday Vegfest Mandi. (Now I want to decorate my entire house in black and braids and dedicate it to Ragnar Lothbrok.)

That Mandi and productivity are like cupcakes and a Whole30. WFF (Worst Friends Forever).

Taking a break from projects was much needed. This isn’t the content producing job style creativity, this is the excited about life because everyday is a new adventure creativity. The kind of inner perspective that lets you look at things, not how they are, but how they could be (and how much fun it would be to get them there)

I have never actually ran a marathon (because why) but my mom has, so this is sort of a parable by proxy. When you get done running, the last thing that you want to do is walk around. But if you don’t then your recovery time is extended far beyond what it is if you stay active for the rest of the day. Keep moving after the marathon and you are so much better off. This is exactly what I didn’t do. I marathoned all of 2014 and come Dec. 1 when the race was over I laid down at the finish line and asked someone to pass the candy. WHHHYYYYYY?!

Now my creativity is all cramped and can barely stand up. And THAT is not a fun way to live my friends.

I am feeling desperate. Desperate enough to have a Manhattan Nest moment (do you read Daniel’s blog? You should, he is the best.) There is this really cute COMPLETELY decrepit abandoned house that I drive past when I take Dyl to dance. Do you know what I did today? I drove over there and looked at it. It has these really adorable windows in the front that I just love. Not going to lie, it was kind of Blair Witch Project-y and I was afraid that someone was going to pop out of a closet and shank me. But all I could see was this house that could be SO amazing (after 100k in repair work).

In all reality, I don’t need a condemned house, I just need a really great project idea, or thrift store find. Something to give me a little jolt.

Or maybe I just needed to get this all off my chest.

If you need me I will NOT be watching Netflix. Probably. (Step #1 is always the hardest)